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Dear Monkey,

Tonight I can't help but wonder just where the past five years have gone. Certainly it was just yesterday I held you in my arms, you staring back at me with those knowing blue-grey eyes looking at me with love. You showed me how someone can truly love someone and just know it. I loved you before I knew you and saw you and cared for you.

When we were finally home as a family, you learned to roll and sit up and crawl. To cruise and run while holding that toy for forever and then one day there you where letting go and walking! And yes the next day running. Okay sure it wasn't all roses and chocolate but it was our ride and we walked it together.

There was PreK for 3 year and PreK for 4 year. We were reaching for the remote for the pause button then.

And now here we are the eve before you start Kindergarten. Another one of those times I let you go to take the steps on your own while inside I am internally wishing for some sort of pause.

I want to yell SOMEONE SLOW DOWN THE TIME as the tears stream down my face but I fear I'll be unheard due to all the excitement. And that is really how it should be.

Monkey Boy, I love you more than all the Cars in your room. Bigger than outter space. All the way up to the moon and back. I pray you will have the Best Day Ever and learn the rules. That the day won't be too bor-rin and you will meet all new friends to play with. I pray your new OT is just as awesome as your last. And that you try your hardest - knowing it is okay if you mess up sometimes when you try. I pray you truly won't miss me even as I will spend my entire day wondering how our day went and just what you were doing at various moments throughout my day oh who am I kidding Missing The Stew out of you while trying NOT to cry all day.

I'm going to miss you despite the fact that you're such a big boy. But you will always be My Only Boy. So pretty much even though my heart feels cracked at the seems and all? I am so happy and excited for you and hope you have the bestest day ever at Kindergarten.

Please, Lord, Be with him all day. Watch over him Because I love him with every square inch of my heart.

Dear Monkey Boy - you will have So Much Kindergarten fun and I cannot wait to hear you tell me all about it after school. I love you so very very much. Hope you have the Best First Day Ever.

Love you the most and the biggest.

Mommy.